I feel like I've been M.I.A., well if you've been wondering what has been going on I'll fill you in a little bit. I have not been cooking up new exciting delicious recipes, I haven't been running like AT ALL, I haven't been taking any pictures with the exception of today, I have NOT got Maddie potty trained, I haven't been the best at home preschool teacher, and haven't felt well for a entire month. I have been doing a lot of reading of talks, attended the temple, reading of scriptures, and spent a lot of time in prayer. A few of you might have been expecting this post, but a majority of you probably were not. Without telling the world I wanted my family and friends to know that we were expecting a baby this spring. As eager and excited as I was to tell you all I wanted to wait till after my first doctor appointment which I thought was scheduled at the end of my first trimester. When I went in I found out I was only half as far along as I thought I was. It was confusing, frustrating, and scary but I was still hopeful that we would yet have a healthy baby. Three ultrasounds & too many blood tests later it was revealed that we would not have a baby joining our family anytime soon. You'd think the second time around it would be easier, in some ways it was but in different ways it wasn't. I wanted to blog this previously, but I ran solely for the purpose of preparing my body for a future healthy pregnancy. I was impressed to do the race and then promised to our Heavenly Father that I would take care of my body if I was blessed with another baby. Well two days after the race was completed I found out I was expecting. Unfortunately my family figured out my secret on a trip to Utah for my dear Aunt's funeral. I was not prepared to tell everyone, but realized it would be hard to cover up my nausea. I did tell my immediate family and wanted to wait till after my first doctor appointment to tell anyone else. I was sick so sick and was sure this was going to be exactly like my first pregnancy. Sorry this turned into a long post. During Conference weekend every talk spoke to me PATIENCE and I couldn't believe Elder Anderson gave a talk specifically about this situation. Well after all the tests my doctor called me on Monday to give me the bad news. She offered a d&c which I felt would be the best option as I was still having nausea and headaches. Jon gave me a powerful Priesthood blessing Thursday morning and I felt calm the rest of the day. I am two days out from my d&c procedure and feeling well. I've felt so much like my old self today that I can't wait to start running again. I'm still alittle emotional, but overall feeling at peace & hopeful for the future. We are more grateful now than ever for our sweet and slightly terrible soon to be 3 year old. The other day I said to her, "Maddie you are my baby". In response she said, "No mom I'm a sister". I looked up at her and smiled and said, "Yes you are a sister".
I wanted to share this sweet picture of my babies :)
Love this picture. Everyone has been so nice so don't worry I'm doing fine. This blog title was inspired by the beautiful Mormon.org ad created by
Rob & Tracie Morris - Former Super Bowl, Champion, Parents of 5
http://youtu.be/48njTrFpUZMhttp://youtu.be/8nczw6xHJ0I
